Ugh…ugh…ugh.

Sorry for the lack of blogging, I’ve been soooo busy!

So, Saskatoon was kind of ok.  I did get to go out of Regina, but I ended up doing all of the driving and all of the van packing and unpacking.  When I got back I had to then drive to my moms place and look after the cats.  I brought Phil with me, so that was kind of fun. 

However, I thought Pewter had gotten sick on sunday, because he would just go and sleep in the closet and not eat all day.  Turns out he was just being a whiney bitch and only wanted to be fed by mom.  Bah!  I skipped work to look after my emo cat.  I am not amused.

Then, this week I have had mountains of crap do to.  2 assignments, 2 lab write ups, 1 final project, 1 lab final.  Even next week its 1 assignment, 1 lab project, 1 lab final.  I finished 1 assignment, 1 lab write up, and almost the final project (its due today, but I just need to do some fancy colouring.).  I also have the lab final today.  I’m not extremely worried, as I’m pretty sure I know exactly what she’s going to want us to do: Countour lines, cross section, column, history.  I just need to study up on the type of unconformities there are.  Apart from that, I’m set.

However, once thats done tonight I have my assignment and my lab to write up.  The lab shouldn’t take a horribly long time, and I don’t really know about the assignment.  The assignment looks tedious and time consuming, and the lab is pretty short.  I’ll see what I can do!

That brings me to work.  I started booking off sundays, until finals started.  So I got one sunday off, and now I have to start working 7 hours on sundays.  I am not amused by this at all.  I make ask Maryanne to not schedule me till 11 or something.  Who knows!  All I know is that over the holidays I have to work my ass off, since I’m pretty sure my grand total for tuition is at like 1000 right now.  Speaking of which, I should go check how much my teaching cheque is. HAHA! 269.  With my cheque from the university, this amount will get my bank account up to 1000.  Then when I keep working and stuff, I will have a lot of money!  This is very exciting!

In other news, I have become addicted to Mahjong.  I keep winning all the time!  Which is a good thing, but also a bad thing because it makes me want to play even more.  I think I have a saved game of it somewhere.  So I think I’ll go play!

Apologies for that mind numbing bullshit

I appologize for the blog.  I was upset, I was angry, I was ready to drop out of school.

Things have changed.

I wrote my 310 midterm this past tuesday.  It went ok, accept for the fact that I didn’t hear an edit right and got the question with the most marks wrong.

I get it back today: 70%.

Ok, not bad.  I know I could have done better, if I had just settled down and figured out why everything was going wrong.  I’ll do better on the final for sure.  I’m hoping that class is atleast above a 75.

I also got 80 my IR lab.  It would have been better, but I cocked up on the stupid illucidation again.  Plus the extra spectral analysis also kind of killed my mark.  Whatever, I’ll get over it.  80 does make up for the 75 I got on my UV lab.  I think I did pretty good  on my Mass Spec lab, so we’ll see I guess.

So I was trying to get this stupid cross section thing to work for my geology lab, but I coudn’t.  I attempted it, but I don’t think it really worked.  I brought a spare piece of paper so I can go see her early today, and then Megan and I are going to finish up that lab and start our final mapping project (which sounds like a dirty whore).  I need to get this strike and dip thing down pat more, because for some reason it just isn’t clicking.

I also get to see Emily for the first time since my step-fathers birthday party (which was on the 23rd of October).  She wants to see WoW so she can see if she wants to play it or not.  However, apparently her mom won’t let her play until she has an income, which is kind of stupid since its a grand total of 15$ a month.  Weird.  Oh well, I told her she can start a character on my account and play it, then I could just transfer it if she ever gets the game.

I also have a chemistry lab due tomorrow.  Ugh, if you want to see a crazy structure, look up tetraphenylporphyrin.  Yeah, and then look up pyrrole.  We started from pyrrole, and we have to draw the mechanism for the stupid reaction. Apparently it takes 3 pages to write out.  I’m not looking forward to that one at all.

I also need to start looking for people christmas gifts.  I have the parents all done, so that leaves Megan, Phil, Laura/Derek, Emily/Abby.  I know what Megan is getting, and thats about it.  I know Phil wants a coat like mine.  So, I’m going to go look to see if they have any nice ones anywhere.  I’m not exactly sure where to look though, so maybe that might not be the best idea.  I have other options to buy him aswell, like a game he can’t find anywhere, and a new desk or something like that.  Syblings won’t be hard, since they’re pretty darn predictable.

Also, I finally worked a full weekend without getting sick!  I hated it, but I did it none the less.  This weekend I work 18 hours, and next weekend I work 4 since I’m in Saskatoon (which I can’t wait for).

I also don’t teach tonight, for the first night in a fricken long time.  I don’t know what I’ll do, apart from my chemistry lab.  I might take the night off, maybe someone wants to do something.  I dunno.

Megan, I hope your midterms went well today.

Maureen, my MSN is dangerous_thinker@hotmail.com

I forgot to post pictures of my new hair, and it won’t let me upload something different.  Pooh.

Later.

I’m losing it!

I’m definitely losing what is left of my sanity.  Rant time!

1) If you ask someone what is wrong, because you genuinly want to make them feel better, DON’T FUCKING MAKE THEM FEEL WORSE WHEN THEY ACTUALLY TELL YOU WHATS WRONG.  This COMPLETELY defeats the purpose of sharing ones emotions.  So, for now on, I will not be sharing any of my problems with ANYONE accept for Megan, because she is the one human being that doesn’t do this (I won’t exclude Maureen either, but I don’t talk to her much….)(Which makes this sad, because the one person who did this shouldn’t be trumped by an internet friend)(Man am I angry about this)(Too many brackets?).  Due to this above statement, I definetly feel like shit, my paranoia is back, and all I ended up doing last night was pretending to sleep.  I wanted to cry.

2) CHARMAINE STOP MAKING ME DO LITTLE PIDDLY CHORES WHEN THERE IS NOTHING TO DO.  God, just take a break for once.  I was cleaning for like 2 hours and apparently it still wasn’t good enough.  Also, yes Frank is slow, but no you don’t insult him right infront of him while still trying to be all secretive to me.  It was a rush, he has never done one, screw off.  AND don’t make me look like the bad guy, and no Ryan the manager did not help at all.  God.

3) Calling me a bitch casually once or twice as a joke is fine.  Constantly pushing my buttons, saying I’m aggitating because I cracked a dirty joke is not amusing. 

4) I need to go cry.

5) Last midterm this week, and I’m hoping I do ok on it.  I’m studying right now….kind of.

I’ll write a real update when I’m not feeling so upset.