This is how you post a blog, post a blog, post a blog!

See Megan?  This is me, posting a blog.  I don’t even have much to say, but yet I’m doing it anyways.  Get it?

So I had to get up at 6AM on Sunday, then teach a private lesson at 3, and then get ready forthe party with Torrie and everyone.  Needless to say, when everyone left, I was fucking exhausted.  I think I’m still feeling it too, because its like I have my mono back or something.  I just feel tired all the time, and so slothfully lazy.  Bah.

Backtracking a little more, I have been teaching privates left right and center for the kids going to Calgary/Canmore.   I’ve taught 4 in the past 5 days, and some of them have been more of a work out for me than they have the rest of the kids.  Oh well, I know I’m out of shape.  Time to get….back into shape.  Maybe get my freaking waist size back into the 28’s.  Gawd.

Also, this is my last week of summer.  Although it felt like it really dragged on, I guess summer has gone by kind of quick.  This month though was just god awful, and I can’t wait for it to end.  However, September usually brings on my seasonal depression, so I’m hoping that it doesn’t happen.  If it does, I think I’ll just go get some anti depressants and be done with it.  I’m sick of always being moody when September hits, its just not practical.

Speaking of school, I bought my books a little while back.  I only bought the geology ones, because the chemistry ones I was told are of no use to me.  I think Chantel is buying the chem ones though, so if I do need them, I’ll just mooch off of her.  I did buy the optional book for Organics 2, so maybe that’ll help something.   The one really expensive Mineralogy book I got USED!  And its in really good condition, so I saved like 75$.  I was really psyched about that.  I was going to pick up the Guide to Minerals and Fossils, but then I remembered Mandy is buying that.

I mooch a lot don’t I?  Well, I do let people copy off my assignments, so its all fair.

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Right?

I think I have to leave soon, to go teach.

Bah, I’m almost out of gas too.

Pay day is this thursday though, even though I said I would be giving the money to my dad.  I may need to reserve some for gas, and my sax.  I think I might play my sax tonight, see if I can’t get back into the swing of things….

I really need a teacher for that.

Maybe I should just give it back?

Maybe I should be more proactive and actually take lessons from someone.  Maybe I’ll ask Emily what its like at the conservatory.  Maybe not?

God, I’m awful at this.  Now I’m just rambling.

I think I’ll leave it here, as I don’t really have intelligent things to be saying.

Tschus!

:@

To whom it may concern:

I have fucking had it with people lying to me. Lying about their plans, lying about information I need, or just lying in general.

If you don’t want to hang out with me, or you don’t want me around, then say so. Don’t fucking come up with some excuse making me think I did the righteous thing by leaving. I can handle being told I’m not wanted, I am almost 20 years old.  I’ve been handling it all my life.
If you have information for me, don’t fucking embelish it so much that I have the completely wrong idea and then try to use that information again, hence making me look like a shit. Its stupid, I just want the thruth.

Next person who lies to me, be fucking ready to be ripped a new hole.

And I’m not joking.

Fuck off, all of you.

Sincerly,

Ryan

The Beaver is up and the cock has crew!

That, my friends, was a dirty pun by Shakespear. He was a perv too!

This week has been going a lot better I think. Sleep is becoming less interupted, although I still wake up atleast once a night. Not so whiney and depressed anymore. My walk did help by the looks of things. So, out with the emo!blog, and in with the whatsbeengoingonomfgryan!blog.

Firstly, this screen r0×0rs my s0×0rs. I love it. Its so big, bright, really good quality. I can’t love it enough. I’ve loved it so much, I’ve started a new ‘retro’ desktop. Retro is in quotes, because I usually have a different view of it when it comes to digital art. I guess I like more disco retro, and rave retro. I unno, I’ll show you when I’m done. Anything to get this crappy desktop off. I’m sorry, but I just don’t like it at all.

Secondly, I had lunch with Chantel and Phil the other day. It was ok, until me and Phil got into a fight infront of her. She was uncomfortable. Phil tried to pay for everyones food, but I had definetly stated I was. I just got really pissed off, because I’m not an invalid, and it makes me feel stupid and worthless when I can’t even pay for lunch. Anyways, we talked it out in the car. I hope we don’t fight ever again, because I’ve spent my entire life fighting with my family, and I just want to be anger free.

Anyways, after that we went shopping, and old navy had hoodies on for a STEALOFADEAL!price. 25.00 with tax! Isn’t that hawt? And, its NOT a small! Its a medium. I think it comes down a bit too far on my waist, but I actually don’t mind the look. Maybe skin tight isn’t the way to go, who knows.

Also, I’ve squared away tutoring for Fatima’s friend, Saher, coming this semester. Its on saturdays and sundays, 10-11. So much for me sleeping in. Oh well, getting 15$ an hour to help with chemistry is fine by me! When the new semester comes, she won’t need my help, so I’ll be able to sleep in on weekends .

And I think thats about it. I slept over at Phils last night, because he needed a ride to work this morning. Well, Jason had a party…thats still going on right now! Needless to say, I didn’t get a WHOLE ton of sleep, but I did get some. For some weird reason, I’m wide awake right now. Eating my Raisin Bran (Keep the door open Ryan! LMAO!), and drinking my coffee.

Oh, and the Riders won. Green is the color! And we kicked your ass!

Anyways, I’m going to listen to some music, and then start my desktop, then finish my to do list.

Tschus!

PS: Look to my Flickr, it has my new desktop on it.